Tuesday, July 31, 2007
i jus got back from tuition and im so tired.but happy =) todays day was alright i guess,ive had better days but today tops the week =) dis morning wasnt so good but after some kick butt netball i was energised once agen and im HYPER .. hehe. we had a friendly match with the national team and i tink it was a pretty good game,very challenging but dts exactly y its so fun =D my big toe bled though after the first match and i got a stitch =( i wanted to stop but dere were no more subs,so,for the love of the game (im trying to sound heroic here =p) i continued to play although i stopped running and jumping =( but i tried, i think.ive been sick for dis couple of days, a little flu + cough + occassional sneezing. i reli dont noe wat i hav.its a mixture of everything.jus great rite. does my face look red? i noe im very tanned. even my leg had different shades of colour =( will our school please build and indoor court? =D eileen says my face owez look like im crying >.< =S haha.
gosh my toe is killing me =( i dont like having to shower with wounds. it hurts =(
i like being sugar high. =) gimme a candy or two and ill jump to the skies =DD its the easiest way to get happy & hyper. hyper is good. happy is great =DD i tink im rambling. ahh,, who cares. aniwaiz i tink everyone one shud smile more. u nvr noe wen u'll brighten someone's day with ur smile.
i shall go now to take care of my poor wounded toe.
take care& godbless DONT FORGET SMILE
ITS ALL ABOUT YOU
tag replies :
eric ; haha i miss talking to u too but we still do alot of faces in tuition.
alex ; wats appathy?
gaby169 ; i dont see you! er. who are you?
9:27 PM
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
i typed a whole blog yesterday and was all ready to post it up UNTIL my computer went cuckoo and erased everything. -.-" just great. i was already to tired to re type anything so i just went to bed.played netball in the rain yesterday and today. today's rain was jus a drizzle though. its fun playing under the rain. i like rainy days as long as im in the house and especially wen im about to go in to bed =) todays match was oowesome. i tink. haha. everyone did great and i had fun.
did i mention.on monday afternoon rite, we were having our chemistry practicals when the fire alarm suddenly went off. and when dt happens normally everyone wud be rushing out and running to safety rite? but dis was wat the guys said ," err,, R we suppose to get out of here? " lol.. everyone was still so calm in their seats. thank god it was jus a false alarm or we'd be barbequed chickens.actually chau-ta (burnt) ones cuz we'd be reli black after that.CHOI!TOUCH WOOD TOUCH WOOD =D we shud have a fire drill exercise one day incase anything happens and so no one will go ,"err.. R we suppose to get outta here? " honestly, i didnt even noe it was the fire alarm that we off. i tot it was the school bell going cuckoo =S
ooh well, its been a pretty tiring day.but not as tiring as yesterday.have you ever felt to preoccupied that even when ur doing something ur still thinking of other things as well and it just makes you forget stuff very easily.my memory is failing me and assesstment is coming soon. i can go on like this =( i shall stay away from the fone. they say the radiation isnt good for the brain. or maybe this is just the result of sleeping with the fone under my pillow. i do that every nite. i feel safer with my fone,somehow i dont noe how bt yea =)
i shall leave now.
hillsongs - only you
take care & godbless =)
smile everyone =DDDDDDDDD
though we're oceans apart id swim across just to get to you.
why does it feel so close but yet so far away.
5:45 PM
Monday, July 23, 2007
everyone has deir super heroes & these are my SUPER HEROES. GOD SENT ANGLES =)first,
AMELIA LAU YI LING
my darling cousin who is jus 6 months older den me :D we've been through alot growing up together. she touches my heart with fuzziness wenever im with her, with her smile, her bubblyness. I LOVE YOU JIE. =D visit here blog here
Then, there is BUN LIEN FAH
ive been close to her since primary five, we've gone through more ups and downs than you can imagine. and we've survived through it all. she is my shoulder to cry on. ive shared my deepest and most sacred secrets with her and sh'e helped me through it all. through thick and thin. having a best friend like her is more than i can ask for. im very lucky. but i dont have a picture of her cuz unfortunately shes not very vain. but she's learning. so i expect to have plenty of picture with her by the end of this year ;D i hope sooner though. i was jus looking through my pictures and i can honestly can i have found no picture of us . so depressing =(
NEXT!
CHARLENE LIAW MEI CHEE
i jus met her this year, but even though its jus been awhile ive already been babbling all my 'stuff' to her. shes a great listener & very honest bout her opinions. she has a very kind heart and she can get reli funny at times ;D
SEBASTIAN LEONG JINN VEI
i got close to him last year, although we've been in the same school since primary one? haha.. i dont even noe how we started getting close but im glad we did. he makes me laugh alot sending me many youtube links of funny funny videos. he may look and walk very pai kia but he has a very sweet sensitive side. hes nicee to talk to too.. i pour some of my troubles out to him and somehow he makes me feel better. girls, he is still very single and available :D
SHANEEL RUTHRAN NAIR
i got to know him later on in form 2.he is a funny guy & a ladies man. he knows how to sweet talk girls.reli. and he is extremely hilarious. he and sebastian are like glue together. dey've been in the same class since forever.not to mention they always sit with each other during exams. i wonder.. hmm.. :D
NG WEI KUEN
we've been in the same class since kindergarten.but we got split up in different classes dis year. shes my bum bum. shes a good listener. and has a very sweet and quiet personality.
i thank god everyday for having dese people in my life and there are plenty plenty more other of my wonderful frens out there which i appreciate but jus nvr got around to tell dem. :D
i shall go now..
tale care & godbless :D
when you walk away i count the steps that you take.the pieces of my heart,im missing you
8:18 PM
Sunday, July 22, 2007
i noe i already blogged today but i suddenly have the urged to blog AGEN! its a miracle cuz normally i find it very hard to get a blogging bug. aniwaiz, random question.
WHY ARE GIRL NORMALLY/ MOSTLY/ ALWAYS THE VICTIM OF LOVE/INFATUATION/LIKE?
i dont get it. y do girls hafta be so stubborn at this area. i mean shes been through it before rite? through experience she wud have felt how it feels like the the happiness,dose fuzzy feelings and lastly, the pain,depression,sorrow of a broken heart. but after she tink shes learnt her lesson she walks into another of this situation. letting herself believe or rather lieing to herself that this time its different. this time its real. was it his promises? was it that twinkle in his eye? was it that sparkle in his smile? was it cuz he said u cud trust him? or was it wen he said you meant everything to him? how can she fall for that wen its all so cliche
NAIVE.
i would like being someone without emotions.
sometimes i wish i cud be like that pirate of the carribean guy - cut my heart out and bury it in a deserted island where no one will ever find it. actually,i wudnt even bother keeping the key. id probably toss it into the ocean. EMO. T.T
gosh, im most probably the most emo person in earth rite noww. i shall chill.
i feel like a critic of love/infatuation/like.
sometimes im afraid ill grow up to be an old woman who is too afraid of the pain love brings to ever believe in it again.
wen im emo or wen i have alot of things on my mind. i clean. i tidy. i tidy that little sanctuary called my room & i actually feel a little better after seeing the neatness in my room.what about you? thank god i dont go taking food for comfort anymore. as much as i crave for ice cream. i have to abstain cuz mom forgot to buy the ice cream and i finished the chocolates already =( i pray not to become a fat hippo wen dis is over. =(
nan ren bu ing kai rang nu ren liu yen lei
6:47 PM
im sitting here crying my heart out.
can you hear me?
im lying here hurting like crazy.
can you feel me?
im smiling jus so i can lie to you bout how i truly feel.
can you see me?
remember those times wen we used to laugh together,
the times wen we argued about the tiniest tings & pretend to be mad.
dose r all distant memories now,
do dey still pass through ur mind? or dose someone else hold dt place in ur heart where i once was.
id runaway cuz its easier. i wana forget u. i want to have nothing to do with you. i want to hate you. i want to hate you cause it makes everything so much simpler. i want to hate you so i can hide from you.
u said u wud never leave me, u lied!
u said you wud never hurt me, u lied!
u said you wud never break me, u lied!
dont you know im hurting, does it even matter to you. i guess not, y shud u care rite? ur jus like any other guy. i want to hurt you. i want you to feel my pain but why isit the more that i hurt you the more i hurt myself. why isit wen ive totally given up hope you come back a lil and wen i hope agen.u dissapoint me.
i guess it is my fault. its my fault for wanting to believe you were different.its my fault for wanting to believe you reli cared being the naive lil girl i am. how pathetic. and i tot i was all grown up and ready.
so many things going through my head with everything piercing through my heart.i wish for everything thats jus not there. i still have our messages,the ones from the very start till the very end. i still hav ur pictures, the ones on that very day. i still have our tickets. ive kept dem till this very day. the candy u gave me. i havent eaten it.remember? today, i found our very first note. the ones i used to send u across the table. i laughed at it. i laughed at how we used to be.happy. i cant believe ur gone & now i cry myself to sleep. u wont be there to comfort me.
that day u walked me after school.that day u wanted to help me carry my stuff.that day u walked me down dose stairs. will be our last times.
one day, ill look back all happy agen and laugh at this stupid little girl,to whom he meant everything.
goodbye, i will forget you.
2:50 PM
Saturday, July 21, 2007
strangely, it has not rained today. i reli hoped it rains, there was thunders and lightnings last nite.. charlene was so cutee she was scared of thunder.. haha.. im not saying im not afraid of thunder i only can handle the lil ones.. =) dt reminds me of my lil cuzzen;amber. wenever she is naughty ill scare her by saying ," thunder yiao lai lo(thunders coming)" i noe im being very mean but u noe babies.. dey can be super cutee and extremely annoying wen dere naughty ..today was yet another super emo day but dt was quickly cured by badminton =D havent played in such a long time it was so so fun =D it made me so hyper eventhough i got reli sweaty =S it jus reminds me why i started playing sports in the first place.. wen shaneel joined the game the started of with ," bring it on SHORTIE" grrr... and he kept targetting me.. pfft.. well, i showed him wat shorttie can do.. muahahahaha.. *grins*
im jus gona be writing randomly on watever passes through my mind.. cuz alot of tings are going through my mind rite now..
1) i dont like un-gentleman guys. dey tick me off. if i cud have it my way id take off my shoe and
start knocking some sense into deir heads. GIRLS ARE TO BE RESPECTED. we are wat
gave you life =)
2) sometimes running away from stuffs easier den facing dem.. in hope of jus forgetting about it.
3) from now on, i tink ill jus ignore about wat other tink of me.. dey're opinions dont matter, dey
jus get in my way..
4) i like aqua songs! i noe dey're reli old but dey're jumpy! and they make me hyper! i even
taught my baby cuzzen how to sing IM A BARBIE GIRL! hehe..
i have a craving for french fries.. MACDONALD FRENCH FRIES & ICE CREAM & CHOCOLATE & SWEET STUFFS. im such a pig *oink oink*
ive been listening to candyman-aqua for the 3 time running.. =DD
ooh my love i noe you are my candy man and oh my love your love is my comand....
i tink i wana go jump around to some aqua songs noww =)
take care& god bless =p
& i thought you were my fairytale
8:21 PM
Thursday, July 19, 2007
im listening to canon in d. it seems like the only tune dt soothes me.. i've been and i tink still am very emo.. well, its been a very emo day.. the unthinkable has happened. i hafta breathe. wat doesnt kill you makes you strongerrr.. ooh gosh im so eemmmooo T.Tthank god for netball.. had a friednly match with a group of ex students and nationals and i kinda realeased my anger with the ball handling and jumping here and there. sports reli does help in releasing tension and stress u noe.. i tink im blacker than charcoal now but i dont care. cuz i figure ill get fairer wen i grow older.wen i wont get the chance for sports anymore.
* a thought jus passed through my mind* hmm.. random thought.. i think everyone needs a somebody and if they think dey can stand on their on den dey r seriously wrong.. god made people all around us so that we can be there for each other.
okayy,, i need to get on with work noww.. its july and im still so busy with stuff.. help anyone? =)
take caree & godbless
8:46 PM
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
im a horrible blogger, i noe.. ive jus been pretty lazy and uninspired to blog.. but i finally dragged my lazy butt here to blog =). firstly, THANK YOU JIE FOR THE NEW LAYOUT.I LIKE! =Paniwaiz, i just went to kk recently missing class on saturday and i only hav a few pictures. i began my 6 hour journey to kk at around 2.00 pm i think.. i practically slept throughtout the ride - waking up and sleeping agen after a few minutes. dt makes up for all my sleepless nites =)
i didnt reli do much dere except go to the mountains for a night and drinking EASYWAY =D i drank easyway in 3 out of 4 days wen i was dere. it so cheap ! its only RM 2.60 for the medium sized one. and they dont even charge u extra for extre pearls... hehe. but the operation of easyway dere is slighty different. dey dont have different sizes of cups and deir cards have expiry dates -.-"" i think brunei's card looks better. the girl dere didnt even noe easyway had branches in other countries. she even wanted to see my brunei card. haha
my easyway<3>
the hill which i walked on
there are alot of acorn trees growing along the road. i sometimes pick the pretty fallen ones but dey have a rough surface and can get quite pokky .
a pitcher plant in the golf course
a view of mount kk from where i stayed i took it from the middle of two trees while i was walking around. i am gona climb dt mountain dt day.. hehe.. hopefully =)well, im gona continue watching charmed now =) and catch up on ALOT of incomplete homework.. ive been so lazy the undone has jus been piling and piling. sigh~ the joys of being a form 4 student.
take care & godbless =D
wen i ask you wats wrong you say,"nothing". but i noe ur lying.
4:33 PM
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Blah. Amelia here. Yeeling's cousin :Dmy cousin is hopeless at blogging at updating. forgive her. horrible girl.
anyhoo, a spanking new layout is up to get her motivated. i hope this works.
Also, tomorrow. watching HARRY POTTER OOTP and then sleepover. i'm ecstatic :D hee.
LOVELOVE;
the cousin (:
8:46 PM