banana pancakes
Sunday, April 26, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SCOTT!
i hope you have an awesome birthday though i know you're no going to read this -.-''
you know i love you xoxo.


HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY JOSIAS OOI WEI WEN!

I haven seen you since 1st Januarryy. That's like 4 months ago. I hope you're doing awesome in Miri and having the time of your life : ) I know you're not usually all yipee doodle on your birthday but i hope you still have a blast anyways cause you only turn 17 once :) so, best wishes and take care yes? maybe, the next time we see each other we'll be like eyy, you have long hair or woah you grew fatter/skinnier. hehe.



feat. simba!

lots of love,
yeeling :)

9:07 AM

It's sunday! which means another weeks past. gad, time flies so fast. actually its more like sky rocket-ed past. I need time to slow down abit for me T.T i've maths, chem , bio homework. and i've to study for maths, bio and chem test T.T School's starting to drive me a little cuckoo but i still love it. AHEM! I'm pretty excited for tuesday cause we're going to RTB to watch the debate but the thing is i'll be missing class for the whole day and i'm a little worried about that. And i also can't wait for basketball tomorrow! hehe. i miss basketball.

On a more emotional note :) I'm not emo. I'm just thinking emo, if you get what i mean?

You know how people say time heals all wounds? I do agree with that but, what stops the pain when you're healing? Local anasthetics can numb your body parts but can it numb you from the pain of an aching heart?

People tell you it's going to be okay, eventually. But when is eventually exactly?
Everyone gets better eventually and what doesn't kill you make you stronger but, i think there's more to it then healing the wound. What about leaving the memories behind or hiding the scars?

8:49 AM

i've put up a wall around my heart.

Friday, April 24, 2009
I miss some people ...









anyways...

i really like this song..

Landon Pigg - i fell in love at a coffee shop.

I think that possibly, maybe I'm falling for you
yes there's a chance that I've fallen quite hard over you.
I've seen the paths that your eyes wander down, I want to come to

I think that possibly, maybe I'm falling for you

no one understands me quite like you do
through all of the shadowy corners of me

I never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop
I love so much
all of the while I never knew
I never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop
I love so much
all of the while I never knew


I think that possibly, maybe I'm falling for you
yes there is a chance that I've fallen quite hard over you
I've seen the waters that make your eyes shine
now I'm shining too

because oh because
I've fallen quite hard over you

if I didn't know you, I'd rather not know
if I couldn't have you, I'd rather be alone

I never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop
I love so much
all of the while I never knew
I never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop
I love so much
all of the while, I never knew

all of the while , all of the while
it was you

10:41 AM

baby, i can feel your halo.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009


HAPPY 18TH belated BIRTHDAY JIE!
u've been more than an inspiration to me all these years whether you know it or not. and you've definitely been a role model. Part of me wouldn't be what i am right now without you, honestly and i love you to bits! you're FINALLY legal! and yes my soon to be personal driver. HAHA. we've been cousins for almost 18 years now and it just doesn't seem that long. i hope all your wishes came true ;)

infinte x's and o's,
meimei <3



and.....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH LIANG! U'RE LEGAL TOO! : )
BEST WISHES. HEHE


2:36 PM

He's got a one-hand feel on the steering wheel. the other on my heart

Monday, April 20, 2009
i wish i had superpowers.
The power to read minds :)



I woke up from my nap this afternoon and i realized something.
For this past week, i've been so pathetically( sp?) emotional and my self esteem went form a 50% to 0% -.-'' And the conclusion is, i need to stop being like this because it just isn't me. I need to be there for my friends and people who need me and i can't help them with in this state of mind yes?
yeeling has to get her crap together. i really reallyy have to get my stuff together. :)

ooh, and on a lighter note, i really like the term , " a smile is a curve that can set things straight "
hehe. Went for the MP meeting this morning and six of us were nominated for the president post. If i can remember correctly the 6 of us was.. Jarrod, Sim, Kong, Hamizah, Me and i forgot the 2 other people. Apparently right, they are going to leave the decision to students so we're like suppose to be campaining? to get people to vote for us? HAHA ( it sounds pretty exciting but kinda daunting ) When i first heard about it my jaw literally dropped. HAHA. campaining? the first thing that came to my mind was obama and hilarry clinton -.-'' posters? flyer? LOL.
i have no idea how to do this but i have to be positive yes? how can i compete with jarrod?? like HELLOO? o.o its jarrod yo :S ooh well, im going to have fun =)

it's amelia's birthday tomorrow so don't forget to wish her! She's turing legal! =D hehe. so exciting!

1:34 PM

You and I both.

Saturday, April 18, 2009
I almost lost my maths textbook and notebook today T.T i left it in the canteen and notebook in the canteen then forgot to take it too class. i came back and it was no where to be found. thank goodness James took it cause somewhere within the pages of my notebook, Neo wrote his name -.-'' you see, one day, Neo wanted to toy with Jarrod by telling him my book was his book and proving it by writing his name in it with a pen. I should write my name on my books :( But, thank you James :) although u won't be reading this.

I'm going to start getting a little emotional here so stop reading :)


I've been on an emotional collercoaster these past few days and no, its not the time of the month. I wish I didn't care so much about what others thought of me. So maybe, if I've been misunderstood or judged, it wouldn't hurt so much? And it wouldn't bother me if someone was upset with me or whatever right?
Maybe it was a mistake to let my guard down. I try to be optimistic and someone told me that i should never stop believing cause nothing is impossible. But, thats what i've been thinking all this while and it seems to me that it is impossible.
Have you ever felt like crying because it hurts so much, but your tears won't fall? And that makes it worse cause you don't have any other way to express yourself? And you can't run to whoever you used to believe in becasue you don't know who to trust anymore.
I'm so messed up right now I don't know how to fix anything. And i'm trying to hold it together but if gust of wind passes by, i might just collapse. I'm so exhausted from trying to set things right. Can't it fix itself? please? help?

5:08 PM

optimism?

Friday, April 17, 2009
*i was suppose to post this like WEEKS ago*

have i told you what's awesome?

Purple potatoes are awesome! Actually i think its called sweet potatoes? I don't know but it's super awesome. It has like a creamy texture and a hint of natural sweetness :) i like i like!



See, even the colour is so prettyy.. i know it looks like a rat bit it or something but i only remembered to take the picture halfway 0=) but, thats not the point. Even after i took it out of my and right, my finger tips were purple and it didnt come off even when i washed my hand. but its a pretty colour so i didn't mind.


I don't think they sell these in Brunei :( I would have one everyday if i could.

and what's new?
I found out that i don't turn to food for comfort anymore =D ( at least thats what i think )
instead, i sleep. -.-'' i don't know how that works but now when i get upset i go to bed and stare at the ceiling or listen to some emotional song and sleep it off. But, i get even more emotional when i wake up -.-''

What's bad?
I sleep after lunch :( it's like i automatically feel sleepy after i fill up my tummy. we take at least 2 - 4 hours to digest our food. and since my metabolism rate is soo low i think it should take pretty long. and the thing is if i sleep i wont be moving about and those the calories will turn to fats T.T sighs.

And i've been sleeping alot lately. I feel so tired all the time. Maybe it's the weather? But, its a good thing i guess. Gets rid of my eyebags?

Okay, thats enough ranting. I'll go shower now. Does anyone still play with rubber duckies? :)

7:45 PM

Runaway

Thursday, April 16, 2009
It's funny how the people who we care for the most are the ones that hurts us the worst.
And we still let them.

7:54 PM

Tears of Jupiter

Tuesday, April 14, 2009
have u ever had the feeling where you just don't know who you are or what to think anymore?
and you feel like going to the peak of the mountain just to scream your heart out even though no one can hear you. Though all it'll do is hurt your throat. Though all the isolation you've put yourself through won't make you feel any better but only bring out the tears you've tried to hard to hold back in? That in the midst of all the smiles and happiness you think you're in, there's always that small part of you that knows somethings missing, that yearns to learn to truth - that needs to know the truth. I need to know the truth.

Have you ever felt that someone is trying to tell you something indirectly? and then you start making assumptions? Assumptions that can turn your frown upside down? But, once again, it's just an assumption and you can't know for sure if its what you really think it is. And you're just so scared to misinterpret things cause what if you're wrong? what if you end up hurting cause you're wrong? But as soon as you start thinking straight, the feeling comes back again.

Have you ever felt like just sitting down on your own to watch people pass you by just so you can find yourself again? Just so, maybe you can relate to someone that you see and maybe then you won't feel so alone. Or maybe so that when you see what is actually going on around you , you might actually appreciate life a little more better?

It's been said that sometimes, to find yourself, you need to get lost first.
Well, I am lost and the worst part of it is, i can't seem to find my way. I'm getting in too deep.
Is that how it is suppose to be?

5:30 PM

roses are red.

Sunday, April 12, 2009
My mood has been changing like the weather these days :(

Like when the weather is hot, ill get grouchy ( sort of )
when its raining, ill feel very depressed
and when its sunny with the right temperature, i feel very content :)

besides having my mood fluctuating so frequently, i'm also having a problem with my appetiete.
Not that i'm complaining or anything :) eat less = less fats = loose weight!

i feel like puking after every meal but i don't puke.
i never thought i'd say this but meat and seafood doesn't appeal to me anymore ( i can hear shaneel's voice going on in my head saying ," are u crazy woman? think of the char siew! " ). it's not that i don't like chicken wings and prawns and stuff but i find myself turning down the offer so easily these days. And if you know me well enough, u'll know that i love rice. i'll always finish my rice before anything else on my plate :) but these days i don't really want to eat rice anymore.

sighs.

i'm beginning to fear getting an eating disorder. but, yet again. Thats kinda impossible.
i hate to say this but i hope i get my appetiete back :( even sushi or capers don't appeal to me anymore? HOW CAN?

i'm ranting to myself again. pfft. i shall stop.
School tomoro! :D HEHE.

8:26 AM

shall we dance?

Friday, April 3, 2009
i reach to you,
i know you can feel it too,
we''ll make it through.

i'd hold you in my arms and never let go,
i surrender.

celine dion - i surrender

TAG REPLIES
ALEX ; Thank youuu : )
SHANEEL ; HAHA. i can't reach la. How to kiss him le?
KUEN; HAHA. that was the first thing i think about when i saw those. LOL
MONKEY ; really? *Beams* HAHAH. though whatever weight u think i've lost. i've gained back two folds! :( *cries*
FADDY ; wat are you talking aboutt?? LOL :p hi papa bear. hehe


I could feel my throat feeling uncomfortable in the wee hours of the morning.
And things just got worse when i woke up :(
Now, i have a cough. My forehead is heating up like a non-stick frying pan and if i dont get better soon, i will be able to scramble eggs up there :( boohoo.
i hate being sick.

I can't wait to go to school tomorrow.





why is everything going downhill?
I'm trying my best to swim against the tide.
I'm trying my best not to give up.
I'm really trying not to cry.

7:02 PM

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