Wednesday, September 10, 2008
the thing that i hate most about you, u make me love you : ) - 7 things about you. miley cyrus.malay orals was not as bad as expected which is a good thing.
been reli busy
1. procrastinating
2. TRYING to study 0=)
i was suppose to update the pictures of wei shen's surprise 17th but blogger was being slow so i promise to post that up when im not too lazy :D
2 more months and then we're FREE!
2 months plus till prom!
1 more year and i can drive!
2 more years till im legal!
time flies.
Starry, starry night
Paint your palette blue and gray
Look out on a summer's day
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul
Shadows on the hills
Sketch the trees and the daffodils
Catch the breeze and the winter chills
In colors on the snowy linen land
Now I understand
What you tried to say to me
How you suffered for your sanity
How you tried to set them free
They would not listen they did not know how
Perhaps they'll listen now
Starry, starry night
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze
Swirling clouds in violet haze
Reflecting Vincent's eyes of China blue
Colors changing hue
Morning fields of amber grain
Weathered faces lined in pain
Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hands
Now I understand
What you tried to say to me
How you suffered for your sanity
How you tried to set them free
They would not listen they did not know how
Perhaps they'll listen now
For they could not love you
But still your love was true
And when no hope was left in sight
On that starry, starry night
You took your life as lovers often do
But I could have told you Vincent
This world was never meant for one as
beautiful as you
Starry, starry night
Portraits hung in empty halls
Frameless heads on nameless walls
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget
Like the strangers that you've met
The ragged men in ragged clothes
A silver thorn on a bloody rose
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow
Now I think I know
What you tried to say to me
How you suffered for your sanity
How you tried to set them free
They would not listen they're not listening still
Perhaps they never will
3 words 8 letters, say it and im yours.
WITH LOVE,
yeeling
6:30 PM
Sunday, September 7, 2008
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEI SHEN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
you had the honour of being the first picture on my camera tonight : )HAHA. YOU'RE OLD! :D i hope u'll have a great one. i noe u read my blog without tagging so i shall not worry that this post will go to waste :D TAG WA. pffft O:)
BEST WISHES :D BIRTHDAY BOY!!
yeeling.
5:28 PM
Saturday, September 6, 2008
i figured the only thing i regret in all this years of my life was meeting you.people say we learn from our mistakes and i believe that. but along with This mistake is regret.
i don't think life would have been any worse without you. maybe, well, most probably would have been better. sure, i admit there were fun times but nothing worth the pain.
i believed you would change really, i guess it was just me being naive? or in denial? but whatever because i see so clearly now and i noe u will never change. i don't even know what u are anymore.
yes, i was really hurt by everything. but i don't think you even bother because u're just too damn self- centred. heck, i don't even think it has ever crossed your mind. i never told you this, but honestly i stayed for you and there is not one day that goes by when i realised what a big mistake i made.
i should have seen it coming. i knew u were selfish, ignorant and people did tell me how u just dont seem right. the only time you gave me support, was when it was also beneficial to you. gosh, you're inhumanely selfish
behind those acts, i noe who you really are and i'll be lucky enough just NEVER meeting anyone like you.
Life would be so sweet without YOU :)
GOOD RIDDANCE.
that was a load off my chest, should have done it sooner :D
3:09 PM
Thursday, September 4, 2008
pei wei ; well, i can't say that pressure is bad. it can be good in different ways which differs with each individual. i can work better if i FEEL the pressure but i cannot work UNDER pressure. if u noe what i mean. HAHA. im sorry if im not making sense.nowadays when i stop to think for a moment, the first thing that comes to my head would be...
what am i suppose to do NEXT?
with GCE this close my days can't be filled with just sitting infront of the tveee having a movie marathon ?!
after fretting for a few seconds i will then wonder, what happened to the old days?
when things weren't so complicated...
When we didnt have a care in the world.
and then it hits me. if its this difficult rite now and i can't handle it den how am i going to get through this in the future? den to reassure myself ill tink. hmm.. im sure everyone goes through this. its just a PHASE. before i noe it i would be driving. have found my ' prince charming' and have a family by the time im 30. okay wait. rewind! thats just tooo far front.as i go furthur in life, i realised that i experience similiar tings all the time except BIGGER things. like PCE -> PMB and now GCE.
how i sometimes wish like was a bed of roses but yet it seems that if life was so perfect, then we wouldnt appreciate it. for example, when we watch romantic movies its only exciting when there is a mishap, when someone makes a mistake. we den look forward to how the couple patches things up. its when its gets romantic, the thrill.people work harder to achieve their goals after they have fallen. a sad fact but its sort of pushes us.
Life's a game, u'll know u've won when u come to the end of it.
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imy<3i'm not here to say i CAN'T LIVE without you, causeI CAN. i just DON'T WANT TO.
adapted from the movie, rumour has it.
adapted from the movie, rumour has it.
11:02 PM
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
so yes, i have not been blogging for a kazillion years already BUT this time it isnt because1. i was tooo lazy
2. not inspired
: ) instead it was because my pc was being an arse. it made me unable to use the internet and god knows how many times ive scanned it to try to get rid of whatever is making the pc so horrible :(
although i must say it was good timing because i was having my mocks and stuff.
this blog shall just be about random rants and rambling considering its 10 pm and im not exactly in a good mood? not bad, just not good. so save urself the eyesore and stop reading from here unless u're just uber jobless : )
i don't exactly know how to put this. i'm not exactly lost because i noe my priorities and wants. i'm not exactly depressed because its not like im sobbing or emoing in anyway. maybe its.... PRESSURE.
yes, seems like the best way to describe it. im experiecing a whole lot of pressure.
1. because mocks r over i just figure o'levels r closer
2. though im glad mocks r over my results r crap which just ruins it all
3. SO MUCH TO DO SO LITTLE TIME & etc.
u noe, i was just thinking. if i so happen to screw up my O'levels and bla bla bla and the only choice of job i wud have would be to become a waitress or a cashier or something like that. i would choose to be in a workplace where
1. they dont have much customers
2. airconditioned, non-smoking environment
3. THERE MUST BE A TELEVISION
4. have wi-fi
sighs. i want to acheive so much yet i don't feel like i have the capability. and no, please dont give me that lecture of, you have to believe in urself or try ur best and everything will work out. because ive been there and done that. i feel like 1/2 of my brain cells are not functioning.
the holidays have just made me lazier. i hate to admit it although i noe its not a good thing but im reli looking forward to this term's holiday.
i wish i was still a baby whose only job would be
1. crying when i want milk
2. sleeping
3. playing
and the best part is i'll win whatever just by crying : ) see.. life would be good and not to mention everyone would want to carry me because ill just be this cute little thing that goes gu gu ga ga. HAHA. okay strike out that last part.
anyhoos. sighs, when pressure gets to me. i just get lazier which is the worst things ever.
im getting a headache now.
life could be better.
signing off.
YEELING.
9:56 PM