im sitting here crying my heart out. can you hear me? im lying here hurting like crazy. can you feel me? im smiling jus so i can lie to you bout how i truly feel. can you see me?
remember those times wen we used to laugh together, the times wen we argued about the tiniest tings & pretend to be mad. dose r all distant memories now, do dey still pass through ur mind? or dose someone else hold dt place in ur heart where i once was.
id runaway cuz its easier. i wana forget u. i want to have nothing to do with you. i want to hate you. i want to hate you cause it makes everything so much simpler. i want to hate you so i can hide from you. u said u wud never leave me, u lied! u said you wud never hurt me, u lied! u said you wud never break me, u lied!
dont you know im hurting, does it even matter to you. i guess not, y shud u care rite? ur jus like any other guy. i want to hurt you. i want you to feel my pain but why isit the more that i hurt you the more i hurt myself. why isit wen ive totally given up hope you come back a lil and wen i hope agen.u dissapoint me.
i guess it is my fault. its my fault for wanting to believe you were different.its my fault for wanting to believe you reli cared being the naive lil girl i am. how pathetic. and i tot i was all grown up and ready.
so many things going through my head with everything piercing through my heart.i wish for everything thats jus not there. i still have our messages,the ones from the very start till the very end. i still hav ur pictures, the ones on that very day. i still have our tickets. ive kept dem till this very day. the candy u gave me. i havent eaten it.remember? today, i found our very first note. the ones i used to send u across the table. i laughed at it. i laughed at how we used to be.happy. i cant believe ur gone & now i cry myself to sleep. u wont be there to comfort me.
that day u walked me after school.that day u wanted to help me carry my stuff.that day u walked me down dose stairs. will be our last times.
one day, ill look back all happy agen and laugh at this stupid little girl,to whom he meant everything.
goodbye, i will forget you.
2:50 PM
Me
YEELING, 17.
procrastinator who has a new found love for photography.
