Monday, September 3, 2007
i shall begin with a very emotional rant. i tink it shud be around one paragraph. so do urselves a favour and just skip this one out. i just need to let it out a lil.
aren't all guys the same? haven't a learn my lesson? don't i already know all the facts? don't i know what i'm doing myself if i fall for you even more? then WHY don't i stop myself? WHY don't i just keep away? WHY am i walking closer and closer into that deep dark pitt? or have i already fallen in? because i can't see anything it's all so blurr to me. when you walk into the room i have no idea what i'm doing. i forget everything and all i see is youu. why isit whenever i go somewhere u're the first person i look for? its al so cliche isnt it? i've been there done that but yet im still being so naive. WHY am i still so drawn to u? WHY isit after so many times of saying to myself, "yeeling u have got to stop this u're only hurting urself, do urself a favour and just get on with your life, why wait for someone who might not even be there at the end."WHY am i being so stupid? i know all the facts but yet i choose to fantasize? i feel all the pain,but how do u take it away just by being there?how do dese tears stream down as easy as they did before? how do you do what you do to me? just kill me for what it's worth cause i don't want to be this way. i'm tired of being happy because of you. i want be happy just because i'm happy. please. STAY.
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okay, so. bio practicals was okay i had benedicts solution split on my baju kurung -.-"
i just finished watching THE NOTEBOOK so maybe i guess thats how my emotional side kicked in. the way they died in the end is exactly how i want to die. holding my husband's hands and dieing in sleep. they say that's the most peaceful way of dying. i might sound selfish but honestly, i don't want to die after my husband. i wudn't want to hafta go through those lonely nights without him.
i was thinking of making jelly today. i like jelly. i like candy. i like oreo icecream. i like chocolate.
*yawns*
yesterday i went to watch THE INVASION with Jie. it was a good movie. and most importantly we finaaly got to do some counsily bonding after like 3 weeks? felt like months =S hope we can do it again some time soon :)
i shall leave i need to do the MIB brochure. deadline's tomoro * gasps* PROCRASTINATOR
takecare & godbless
I FALL, FELL FALLEN
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