cause this is the last time i give up this heart of mineTuesday, September 2, 2008
so yes, i have not been blogging for a kazillion years already BUT this time it isnt because
1. i was tooo lazy
2. not inspired
: ) instead it was because my pc was being an arse. it made me unable to use the internet and god knows how many times ive scanned it to try to get rid of whatever is making the pc so horrible :(
although i must say it was good timing because i was having my mocks and stuff.
this blog shall just be about random rants and rambling considering its 10 pm and im not exactly in a good mood? not bad, just not good. so save urself the eyesore and stop reading from here unless u're just uber jobless : )
i don't exactly know how to put this. i'm not exactly lost because i noe my priorities and wants. i'm not exactly depressed because its not like im sobbing or emoing in anyway. maybe its.... PRESSURE.
yes, seems like the best way to describe it. im experiecing a whole lot of pressure.
1. because mocks r over i just figure o'levels r closer
2. though im glad mocks r over my results r crap which just ruins it all
3. SO MUCH TO DO SO LITTLE TIME & etc.
u noe, i was just thinking. if i so happen to screw up my O'levels and bla bla bla and the only choice of job i wud have would be to become a waitress or a cashier or something like that. i would choose to be in a workplace where
1. they dont have much customers
2. airconditioned, non-smoking environment
3. THERE MUST BE A TELEVISION
4. have wi-fi
sighs. i want to acheive so much yet i don't feel like i have the capability. and no, please dont give me that lecture of, you have to believe in urself or try ur best and everything will work out. because ive been there and done that. i feel like 1/2 of my brain cells are not functioning.
the holidays have just made me lazier. i hate to admit it although i noe its not a good thing but im reli looking forward to this term's holiday.
i wish i was still a baby whose only job would be
1. crying when i want milk
2. sleeping
3. playing
and the best part is i'll win whatever just by crying : ) see.. life would be good and not to mention everyone would want to carry me because ill just be this cute little thing that goes gu gu ga ga. HAHA. okay strike out that last part.
anyhoos. sighs, when pressure gets to me. i just get lazier which is the worst things ever.
im getting a headache now.
life could be better.
signing off.
YEELING.
9:56 PM
