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Tears of Jupiter

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

have u ever had the feeling where you just don't know who you are or what to think anymore?
and you feel like going to the peak of the mountain just to scream your heart out even though no one can hear you. Though all it'll do is hurt your throat. Though all the isolation you've put yourself through won't make you feel any better but only bring out the tears you've tried to hard to hold back in? That in the midst of all the smiles and happiness you think you're in, there's always that small part of you that knows somethings missing, that yearns to learn to truth - that needs to know the truth. I need to know the truth.

Have you ever felt that someone is trying to tell you something indirectly? and then you start making assumptions? Assumptions that can turn your frown upside down? But, once again, it's just an assumption and you can't know for sure if its what you really think it is. And you're just so scared to misinterpret things cause what if you're wrong? what if you end up hurting cause you're wrong? But as soon as you start thinking straight, the feeling comes back again.

Have you ever felt like just sitting down on your own to watch people pass you by just so you can find yourself again? Just so, maybe you can relate to someone that you see and maybe then you won't feel so alone. Or maybe so that when you see what is actually going on around you , you might actually appreciate life a little more better?

It's been said that sometimes, to find yourself, you need to get lost first.
Well, I am lost and the worst part of it is, i can't seem to find my way. I'm getting in too deep.
Is that how it is suppose to be?

5:30 PM