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Saturday, April 18, 2009

I almost lost my maths textbook and notebook today T.T i left it in the canteen and notebook in the canteen then forgot to take it too class. i came back and it was no where to be found. thank goodness James took it cause somewhere within the pages of my notebook, Neo wrote his name -.-'' you see, one day, Neo wanted to toy with Jarrod by telling him my book was his book and proving it by writing his name in it with a pen. I should write my name on my books :( But, thank you James :) although u won't be reading this.

I'm going to start getting a little emotional here so stop reading :)

I've been on an emotional collercoaster these past few days and no, its not the time of the month. I wish I didn't care so much about what others thought of me. So maybe, if I've been misunderstood or judged, it wouldn't hurt so much? And it wouldn't bother me if someone was upset with me or whatever right?
Maybe it was a mistake to let my guard down. I try to be optimistic and someone told me that i should never stop believing cause nothing is impossible. But, thats what i've been thinking all this while and it seems to me that it is impossible.
Have you ever felt like crying because it hurts so much, but your tears won't fall? And that makes it worse cause you don't have any other way to express yourself? And you can't run to whoever you used to believe in becasue you don't know who to trust anymore.
I'm so messed up right now I don't know how to fix anything. And i'm trying to hold it together but if gust of wind passes by, i might just collapse. I'm so exhausted from trying to set things right. Can't it fix itself? please? help?

5:08 PM